marco baylon

was finally able to go the the gym before work just like i used to. it actually felt great. waking up early, not having to rush to get ready. riding the mrt at 6am, being at the gym at quarter to 7. it was nice. i was able to complete my program. it felt good : )

still trying to persevere with a decision made a little over a month ago. its tough. any decision is much easier if there arent any other people involved. but this decision involves almost everyone around me. its tough to sacrifice for others, especially when they dont understand how much youve given up for them. then again i didnt do it for them, i did it for God. God, in turn, intended to use the situation for me to bless others. its also tough when the one whose opinion you value the most doesnt agree with you completely with your situation. then again its not her opinion that i should be concerned about, but God’s. i just wanna do the right thing. and it might not be the right thing for others. its what im convicted of in my heart. if i disobey this, my soul will definitely be troubled again. but can i give up my own peace for that of someone else’s? should i? … peace is for God to give, not me. either way.. i am still going to continue doing what is right. ive wanted to just give this up so many times, its only by grace that im still here.

i just wish God gave me specifics on everything.

ok, so it has been since Maundy Thursday since i went to the gym. the one where i went with the MB boys.. well, young men. i failed to mention in the last post that during that time, while doing reps on the chest press, up around the 9th rep that i kinda forced myself to finish, i felt something *pop* in the back of my head. that is, inside my head, right around the back, near the nape. almost immedeatly my face turned red and i got really dizzy. but being the proud dgroup leader, showing off to my d12, i forced myself to finish the last 3 reps. man, that was weird. what made it worse is that i kept on going around and doing other exercises after that incident. days after, i would easily get tired. id get dizzy, painfully dizzy, even after 5 reps of really really light weigths at home. even during easter sunday worship, i was really getting into singing [but early sunday morning, just as jesus said... nanananana... now we have a new beginning, and a kingdom! that has no ending! hallelujah! hallelujaaaah!] … [i love that song] .. by this time, id be having tunnel vision, and feel what might be what a person feels like before he/she faints. it was bad. i couldnt do any physical, mental work for a week. even the week after that, id still feel pangs on the back of my head, get tunnel vision even from the slightest exertion of pressure.

well that was a month ago, i think. and i officially wasted 1 months worth of fitness first.

and now im back. and oooh yeah, i love the burn. i dont care if im all scrawny compared to all the other buffed up guys [gays? of which, there are a lot in fitness first]. im enjoying working out again, and hopefully i can get to continue my daily gym routing from today on. maybe even build up my old appetite, get back to 120, be more disciplined, succeed in life… uh. ok. goodnight.

well that was nice. i should prepare myself now.

you know how theres always a calm after the storm? im beginning to see that theres always a storm after the calm.. wait, i think i got it mixed up, was it the calm before the storm?o_0

ok. im not really badtrip. narealize ko lang talaga na b0b0 ako sa nihongo. we just finished our internal nihongo exam. it was muri. impossible. seriously. lahat ng yabang ko na marunong ako magnihongo? yabang lang yun, maniwala kayo. i dont know crap about the japanese language [but i do know how to say crap in japanese, i give you that].

then again. this is probably.. most definitely.. really just the consequences of my actions [or lack thereof]. i feel like im in college again. i get that high right after a failed exam [even if the results arent out yet] na parang “im gonna do better next time”. pero how? wow, that exam was really tough!

first off, thank you Lord for the nice commute :)

it was weird. i left the house at the time where usually id be dreading to ride the MRT and take the jeep.

7am rush hour [shiver]

it was weird kse when i got to the MRT, there werent that many people. even the walk to the jeep and the jeep ride was calmer and quieter than usual.

probably the one thing i missed about commuting [been bringin the car for the past few days, that can tell a lot of about how broke i am now.. hehe], is listening to music on the way to work. sure the radio is nice and all, lets me hear whats going on with the current music scene. but morning radio is usually too loud, having too many commercial breaks [punta na! sa san miguel babad, wet and wild pah-ty ng SMB.. uh, sorry] and DJs are extra makwento in the morning i dont know why. so it was a nice experience just listening to my own playlist.. nonstop.

then i realized over the years, i have built up my own collection of favorites. and i like the fact that im not chained to one particular genre of music [yes, 'N Sync included, thank you myron for the spelling]. i enjoyed the tracks that were “randomized” [shuffled?] into my zire today:

• confessions part 1 – usher
• somebody’s baby – phantom planet
• it is well with my soul – dc talk feat. jennifer knapp
• something about you – five for fighting
• 1979 – smashing pumpkins
• bad day – something corporate
• space between – dave matthews band
• always be my baby – mariah carey
• it aint over till its over – lenny kravitz
• punk rock princess – something corporate
• paper heart – all american rejects

no pics for this one, naubusan ng battery ang jonatscam ^_^;

had a really blessed time with the yuppie batch of kuya ryan’s d12. as usual, makulit na seryoso.. or as k.ryan puts it: “fun and meaningful”

i thought i was gonna be late for the d12 since i left the office almost 6pm na. and traffic was so bad. mas traffic pa sa ortigas area than in makati. they really need to rethink the traffic scheme there. all the one-way streets are great and all, pero there has to be a better way. anyway.. im digressing.

when i got to CCF, i didnt see them in any of the floors. whats worse. phone battery was dead [as usual]. i eventually saw them in the CCF Office, and it turns out, only k.ryan and jp pena was there. we decided to order take-out then just bring it to “the fort” (floor). jc gueco and frank faustino eventually got there, we ate our dinner and started our d12.

ryan is implementing this thing sa d12 namin where each person will speak on one topic per week. yesterday was jp, next (next?) week will be jc. jp’s topic was about the juggler. basically what i can remember now is:

• God allows situations to happen in our life (good, not-so-good, bad)
• Our part is how to react to them
• while(true) { Accept(situation); Entrust(situation); } <– made this one up
• more later :D

it was a really nice discussion, very serious but also just enough hirits to make it light. Boys will be boys, and Praise God for that, hehehe.

jc and i got to bond on the way home. astig ka jc. im still praying for your situation. to all the, i think ryan came up with a name… “dreamy dozen“.. God bless and see you next week! well.. ill see the non-romblon peeps next week

my boys and i met again yesterday after a long hiatus.

the last time was Maundy Thursday and we (me, danezet, mikey and jp a.k.a. papa bear) spent the afternoon/night pigging out on ice-cream, playing chess/dama, looking for a pool, working out at fitness first, having dinner at mister kabab (yummy! but we saw ipis crawling around near our food… yeck), and ended the day with coffee and watching the contender.

it has only been three days after camp and so much has happened to you guys. i am especially proud of timmy and hp, who finally joined us again after such a long time. congratulations to timmy for being this years blue babble head for ateneo HS! go ‘teneo! for ramon, daniel and mikey: you guys are an inspiration to your boys. i can see how they look up to you and see you as a role model. that doesnt mean you are, will, or should be perfect. its ok, its normal, the situations you are going through. and i also know a lot of the things we’ve discussed you know already the answer/what to do. be strong in faith, persevere, trust in God, obey, stand up when you fall. hp, i hope you will be joining us more often. we really need you to “step up” your game. you are basically ready to lead na, we just need to smoothen out some rough edges. by the time we get to sembreak camp, you can already lead with daniel (like what isaac and rj is doing).

i am praying for you guys :)

well guys, and also for those who werent able to go (jameco, papa bear, issac, inoh & tim), see you next week! actually, see you friday sa soulstop.. or saturday sa jzone.. whenever, but lets still continue with our wednesday nights ok?

(ramon, yung puca shells necklace ko a)

pictures here