marco baylon

do i thank God?

i dont, or not as much as i should.

the writer says it best, we should “look beyond our blessings to their source”. i rarely thank God. mostly its just this really warm feeling in me that says thank you God.. but thats just it. or sometimes naman, its this feeling na, “i knew it, i knew God will do something”. and then thats is.

sa dami ng problems ko associated with my poor memory, i think remembering to thank God for his many blessings is the worst. i cant remember them, but im sure in my heart that there is so much there to thank God for.. so much.. i’d run out of time just naming them.

how should we thank God?

the samaritan leper, fell down at Jesus’ feet and thanked him. saying “Praise God, I’m healed”. i think i just need more of that.. more of just worshipping Jesus. i do a lot of Martha type things and not enough of Mary type things. at least lately. i miss things like singing at church.. songleading even.. i miss dawnwatch.. or prayertimes during camps.. those are the times when i know that i really am just at Jesus’ feet, just worshiping him, and enjoying being in his presence. can i do those things here? im not so sure.. maybe.. at least i appreciate it more now. when i was able to go to Jzone last August, i was in tears during worship time.. i couldnt stop crying while i was singing to God.. it was just really something i miss..

oh wow.. title palang.. alam ko na na sakto nanaman to: “Steadfast In Your Resolve”.

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the more i write about it and not do anything about it. the more guilty i am of disobedience.

dont be distracted, keep your eyes focused on what God has told you to do.
dont be scared. stop procrastinating.
lets do this.

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its almost a month since the last post. and even if i choose not to be legalistic about the whole thing. in the future as i look back on my christian growth during this time, id think that it was three weeks of no growth at all.

but that didnt stop God from teaching me.

i now have realized that God is actively working in even the small details of my life. two things amaze me about this: one of course is that God would even care for someone like me, and two that He cares for even the small things. but the small things arent really small things. in itself they may be unimportant events, but when the big picture comes up, all the pieces come together to make sense.

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im speechless with today’s devotional. i can’t stand how clear God can be sometimes.. i’m just going to paste the devotional here now so that i’ll remember how straight to the point God is with me tonight.

Jesus asked His disciples to do something that clearly was impossible. There were five thousand men, along with their families, and they were famished. There were only five loaves of bread and two small fish—obviously not enough to feed a multitude. The cost of food for even a portion of the crowd would have far exceeded the disciples’ small budget. It may have seemed absurd to the disciples that Jesus should ask them to distribute the paltry amount of food to the massive crowd. Yet that is exactly what Jesus asked them to do. Because Jesus had given the command, the disciples obeyed and witnessed an incredible miracle.

Christ will lead you into many situations that will seem impossible, but don’t try to avoid them. Stay in the middle of them, for that is where you will experience God. The key difference between what appears to be impossible to us and what is actually possible is a word from our Master! Faith accepts His divine command and steps out in a direction that only God can complete. If you only attempt things that you know are possible with the visible resources you possess, those around you will not see God at work. You will be the one who receives the credit for a job well done, but God will have no part in it.

Take inventory of your life and the decisions you are presently facing. Have you received a word from the Master that awaits your next step of faith? If you will proceed with what He has told you, no matter how incredible it might seem, you will experience the joy of seeing your Lord perform a miracle, and so will those around you.

in case you forget. this is surely speaking of two main things: your job in japan and making a difference in the lives of the people you are with now.

Lord…