marco baylon

the sad part about this, is that i actually had to force myself to do this. because i know i have to. its just sad really that theres a struggle. even if i know clearly that this is the best thing i can ever do in any day.

sorry for the long hiatus God.. you know we’ve been talking a lot during the gap. i especially wrestled and argued a lot with you. and many times really just blatantly ignored you. sorry. thank you for being patient. thank you for your loving-kindness.

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tck. my quiet time passage talks about farming. hahaha. i cant even continue reading.

Lord, what did i tell you about giving me signs like this? i don’t get it well. i don’t trust it. i get excited by it, that’s for sure. but i would rather a clear message than just a string of coincidences. ok, just two coincidences so far: JC Yu telling me that he’s praying that i “bear much fruit in 2007″, and my quiet time tonight.. which reads..

Then Jesus explained: “My nourishment comes from doing the will of God, who sent me, and from finishing his work. Do you think the work of harvesting will not begin until the summer ends four months from now? Look around you! Vast fields are ripening all around us and are ready now for the harvest. The harvesters are paid good wages, and the fruit they harvest is people brought to eternal life. What joy awaits both the planter and the harvester alike!
- John 5:34-36

so i have considered many aspects already of the job. was even brought back to reality a couple of times. but failed to see what is really important. thank you Lord for this passage, for reminding me what are the real important factors that i should be considering with regards to this decision.

what is the will of God? for your life marco?
- i know that God wants me to be a light to the world. to bring in a big harvest of souls. whether i am in japan or in the philippines. so i should carefully consider if i will be able to do this with my next job.

is God talking figuratively? or this the real deal?
- this could be the real deal. i have this urge inside me that wants to know all about what Jesus is talking about when he talks using this kind of analogy. what does a field ripe for the harvest look like? how long does it take? what does the planter and harvester feel/do? what is this joy that he is talking about? of course, i could just imagine what its like. we all could. but wouldn’t it be great to experience it first-hand?
OR
- God is showing me, that i should be just as excited about harvesting souls as i am now thinking about harvesting plants. its a long shot. my heart is against me on this one.

bottom line: where will i be able to do God’s will.

that should be bottom line.